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10 February 2009 @ 09:14 am
all is illusion  
A depression has settled upon me and lodged itself deep inside my brain. Nothing special going on to cause it, so it's almost certainly just chemical. It's funny how quickly I can lose the ability to care about anything. It's really like a switch has been pulled. At least I've been through this enough times to know I'll come back out the other end at some point.

Oddly, it's only at times like this that I ever feel I could be a Buddhist. My attachments to the world are refreshingly minimal at the moment and my suddenly emptied brain seems primed for meditation.

I'm sure there's a well-established link between depression and religious conversions.

Listening to: The Zombies - "Friends of Mine"
Diary of an Ass Monkey: amd: Luke Cheuh & Teresa MTZassmonkeydiary on February 12th, 2009 01:21 am (UTC)
My sleeping's actually pretty good. One of the few areas in which I'm totally fine.
(Anonymous) on February 12th, 2009 04:15 am (UTC)
When I went through a pretty depressed period, I was sleeping *a lot* but it really wasn't quality. Do you dream a lot? That's my litmus for really decent sleep. If I have dreams and can recall them (at least for a while) after waking up. Also, if I wake up before the alarm does. I also bought a few fuller spectrum or hotter (6500K) fluorescent bulbs. I supplement my houseplants with them, but I also try and sit near them for a bit each day. Winter is especially hard to get decent sunlight.

Good luck figuring it all out. It really sucks when negative emotions impact your life. I'm sure you know that attitude has a huge impact on everything one does.

FYI Checking out your daily pix always picks up my mood!